I am no poet my dear

Sometimes my intellect challenges me

To quote my heart's desire 

But I am no poet my dear

Sometimes my feelings form words

To describe them as harsh swords

But I am no poet my dear

Sometimes my thoughts are raw

To lessen a bit of my sorrow

But I am no poet my dear

Sometimes my emotions are murky

To vent out the clouds that are smoky

But I am no poet my dear 

Sometimes my sentiments are lucid

To erase the sore that are acid

But I am no poet my dear

Sometimes my heart just vocalizes

To nurse the hurt that scandalizes

But I am no poet my dear

Sometimes my senses voice 

To degrade the loathe and have my choice

But I am no poet my dear

Sometimes my soul inks away

To record the vibes in its full sway

But I am no poet my dear

Words and byword mumble

Into a meaningful rumble

But I am no poet my dear

I often wonder why I am this way..

I often wonder why I am this way

Why do I enjoy the setting sun

Why do I appreciate the moon rise

Why do I get calm by the swift wind

Why why???

I often wonder why I am this way

Why do I like to watch the violent surf

Why do I cherish the view of the patient lake

Why do I love the sound of cascading stream

Why why???

I often wonder why I am this way

Why do I adore the snow peaked mountains

Why do I fall for the green landscape

Why do I appraise the picturesque nature

Why why???

I often wonder why I am this way

Why do I freek out when I am lonely

Why do I crave for lonliness when I am in crowd

Why do I always have to deal with these mood swings

Why why???

I often wonder why I am this way

Why do I sometimes ask silly questions

Why do I sometimes act like a crazy fool

Why do I sometimes behave a bit clumsy

Why why???

I often wonder why I am this way

Why do I often regret my decisions

Why do I generally lack self-confidence

Why do I rarely trust my judgement

Why why???

I often wonder why I am this way

Why do I not savor the blissful moments

Why do I crib over the woebegone days

Why do I sometimes remain so sore

Why why???

I often wonder why I am this way

Why do I always try to escape from love

Why do I not relsih the magic of life

Why do I still wish for more and more

Why why???

This is the way I am from the start

A little determined  and a lot more confused

A little naughty and a lot more charming

A little emotional and a lot more crazy

But my inquisition remains unanswered 

As still I often wonder why I am this way..

Why why???

Sometimes & Othertimes

Sometimes I feel that I am in the top of this world

But othertimes I feel that I am the down trodden one

Sometimes I feel that I am amidst joy and happiness

But othertimes I feel that I am the one with sorrow and sadness

Sometimes I feel that I have the warmth of love in me

But othertimes I feel that I have been the one to be stone cold

Sometimes I feel that I have been bestowed with heavenly blessings

But othertimes I feel that I am the one who has never been blessed ever

Sometimes I feel that being myself has been the best thing in my life

But othertimes I feel that I am just one featherhead goofying around

Sometimes I feel that me and my luck go hand in hand

But othertimes I feel that I am the one who is star-crossed from the start

Sometimes I feel that I have the vigor, espirit and impulse of life

But othertimes I feel that my heart and soul are long gone  so now I am better off dead

Times change and so do feelings...

What remains is a blurr of happiness... 

A weather-beaten open wound of sadness...

And a huge bulk of eroded emotions...

 

I just wanna...

I just wanna sing a song today

Rap a tune of life, love and happiness 

Rock everyone with my medley and melody 

And then to it add a bit of my sweetness

I just wanna dance today

Stomp and caper, romp and hop

Dance to the tune of life and sway

And use life as my available prop

I just wanna fly today

Open my wings and soar high

Touch the glazed horizon and milky way

And enjoy my flight without a sigh

I just wanna laugh today

Crack jokes and make funny faces

Forget all my worries and laugh away

And add  liveliness to my dull senses

I just wanna be in love today

Live a moment of ecstacy and heavenly bliss

Be in my beloved's arms all day

And savour the passion in a exotic kiss

Me Vs Reality

Why did the sunshine not reach me

     When I was the one waking for it 

Why did the moon not shine on me

     When I was the one praising it

Are they just ignoring me...

    Or are they just enjoying it

Why did the breeze not cool me

     When I stood face to face with it

Why did the fire not warm me 

     When I wanted the warmth from it

Are they just playing games with me...

    Or are they just enjoying it

Why did the snow not moist me 

     When I like playing with it

Why did the spring not brighten me

     When I sang songs to glorify it

Are they just jeering at me... 

    Or are they just enjoying it

Why did words abandon me

     When I desired to stick to it

Why did tears dampen me

     When I never longed for it

Are they just teasing me...

   Or are they just enjoying it

Why did melody not rock me 

     When I wished to dance to it

Why did poetry not charm me 

     When I loved to flow with it

Are they just mocking me...

    Or are they just enjoying it

Why did love not gratify me

     When I had my heart on it

Why did life not content me 

     When I dreamt to subsist on it

Are they just sneering at me...

   Or are they just enjoying it

I Don't Know Why

I wished to fly like a bird

Spread my wings and touch the blue sky

But now the thought is just so weird

And believe me I don't know why

I desired to swim like the ducks

Floating angelic in the exotic spray

But now the idea just sucks

And belive me I don't know why

I longed to run as fast as a fawn

Feeling the breeze and to just run away

But now I am just another forlorn

And believe me I don't know why

I enjoyed walking in the rain

Getting wet and smiling all way

But now I am wet with tears and pain

And believe me I don't know why

I used to laugh like kids

Full of innocence and was once shy

But now I just cry for my deeds

And believe me I don't know why

I thought growing up was great

Doing what I want and having my own way

But now growing old is another fret

And believe me I don't know why

I believed to be loved

Is the most beautiful feeling full of ecsatcy

But now I am afraid of being loved

And believe me I don't know why

I wanted to savour life throughout

Spreading happiness, fun and joy

But now the idea seems to be old n out

And believe me I don't why