Wednesday, December 23, 2009

A Flick from the past

A flick from the past..
is a feeling long last..
Chirping and smiling..
the time just flies fast.

Cuddling in together..
in the warmth of each other..
Drifting and melting ..
moments that were sweeter.

Glistening moments in the dark..
full of impish spark..
Moaning and sighing..
with love making its own mark.

Sweet as nectar..
were those heartfelt emotions..
Craving and longing..
for wild and untold sensations.

A flick from the past..
is a feeling long last..

Thursday, December 3, 2009

On 2nd Marriage Anniversary




Strange was the day..When we met for the very first time,
Strange was how we..Clicked from the beginning
Strange was how being..Poles apart we fell in love
Strange was how often..People said we are 'Made for each other'
Strange was how we used to.. Fight over trifle matters and later felt bad
Strange was how we used to.. Tackle worst times hand in hand
Strange was how we laughed.. And cried in each others' arms
Strange is how distance.. Couldn't overcome the depth of our love

Strange moments brought us closer with each passing day;
And strangely fighting, loving and laughing we reached our 2nd Anniversary

Love you Dear... Happy Anniversary


Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Spending time without you my Dear


Spending time without you is similar to draught..,
Dried feelings and sighs wrought..
Sparing thoughts full of pain..,
Making eyes sore as tears drain..
Spending time without you is so sore..,
With sunken senses in heart core..
Brittle emotions lay unattended..,
With your love alone that can be tended..
Spending time without you is dour..,
Void of dreams and desires sour..
Aching heart aches more..,
As unison it just hopes for..
Spending time without you is a lesson..,
Forbidding me of your affection..
As I wait here thinking of you..,
I just want to say “I Love you”.

Monday, September 7, 2009

Dil ki aawaz..




Kuch khwaish unkahe se..

Kuch aarmaan dabe hue se..

Dil ki halat kaise bayan karun..

Jab labz hi hai khamosh se..


Khud se hi ab naraz rehne lagi..

Aanshuon ke saath ab toh jeene lagi..

Samna hua ish kadar khud ke saath..

Ki main ab tut ke bikharne lagi..


Bewajah khud se ladne lagi..

Har tamana meri yun mitne lagi..

Aashon ne bhi saath na diya..

Ki yunhi main toh sishakne lagi..


Tanhayion main raatein katne lagi..

Beeti saari baatein jab yaad aane lagi..

Leke aa gayi zindegi kis mod pe..

Ki yaadon se ab main bhagne lagi..


Khwabon main bhi ghabrane lagi..

Haqiqat se jab main harne lagi..

Ab raha na kuch baaki mere paas..

Jab main khud se bhi durr jaane lagi..


Kuch khwaish unkahe se..

Kuch aarmaan dabe hue se..

Dil ki halat kaise bayan karun..

Jab labz hi hai khamosh se..

Monday, February 9, 2009

Thought Stream



Have you anytime imagined how lucid and fluid our thoughts can be? They seem to flow in every possible direction as they don't bother about any hurdles like the free flowing rivers which don't care about the boundaries or territories in which they flow.


Sometimes I get surprised on my fluctuating thoughts. At one time I am thinking something and suddenly there comes a cascade and the flow of my thought takes a twist and changes its direction and then I am suddenly thinking something totally different which has absolutely no relation with my previous thoughts.


But at some other times some thoughts just tend to cling to the back of my mind and whatever I try to do in order to change their flow they just stick in there and try to dominate all my expertise in free thinking. And believe me all my self-control and self-resistance is a joke then.


Other times... when I really want to reason out things then all of a sudden I realize I am devoid of thoughts and that just my mind is blank. That's when I feel sorry for myself and at the same time I get very confused. And that's not a very good situation.


Some thoughts make me nervous racing my palpitation, some tensed making my brows curl, some tired asking me to just stop, some logical making me feel intelligent for the time, some naughty and mischievous, some are tempting enough to explore, some sinuous making me feel devils' own, some boil up my anger, some make me jump with joy, some are crystal clear like a placid lake, some torments like the violent surf and some just have their own way.


Sometimes I go such a long way with my thoughts that I forget what I was initially thinking and how all my thoughts reached the present note... then what I do must sound a little comical and I know you will have a hearty laugh on it but in that case I usually track down my thought stream and reach my initial point. Oh ho!!! you must be thinking why the hell I think and then why do I have to track it down. But I too don't know why the heck I do it even..but I do it every time my thought stream takes a new twist and turn. I know a few of you who read my blogs will conclude either I am out of my wits or that I have too much free time in my hands to handle. But believe me neither is the case and whatever I have written so far is just one of my thought stream.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

I am no poet my dear


Sometimes my intellect challenges me
To quote my heart's desire 
But I am no poet my dear

Sometimes my feelings form words
To describe them as harsh swords
But I am no poet my dear

Sometimes my thoughts are raw
To lessen a bit of my sorrow
But I am no poet my dear

Sometimes my emotions are murky
To vent out the clouds that are smoky
But I am no poet my dear 

Sometimes my sentiments are lucid
To erase the sore that are acid
But I am no poet my dear

Sometimes my heart just vocalizes
To nurse the hurt that scandalizes
But I am no poet my dear

Sometimes my senses voice 
To degrade the loathe and have my choice
But I am no poet my dear

Sometimes my soul inks away
To record the vibes in its full sway
But I am no poet my dear

Words and byword mumble
Into a meaningful rumble
But I am no poet my dear

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

I often wonder why I am this way..

I often wonder why I am this way
Why do I enjoy the setting sun
Why do I appreciate the moon rise
Why do I get calm by the swift wind
Why why???

I often wonder why I am this way
Why do I like to watch the violent surf
Why do I cherish the view of the patient lake
Why do I love the sound of cascading stream
Why why???

I often wonder why I am this way
Why do I adore the snow peaked mountains
Why do I fall for the green landscape
Why do I appraise the picturesque nature
Why why???

I often wonder why I am this way
Why do I freek out when I am lonely
Why do I crave for lonliness when I am in crowd
Why do I always have to deal with these mood swings
Why why???

I often wonder why I am this way
Why do I sometimes ask silly questions
Why do I sometimes act like a crazy fool
Why do I sometimes behave a bit clumsy
Why why???

I often wonder why I am this way
Why do I often regret my decisions
Why do I generally lack self-confidence
Why do I rarely trust my judgement
Why why???

I often wonder why I am this way
Why do I not savor the blissful moments
Why do I crib over the woebegone days
Why do I sometimes remain so sore
Why why???

I often wonder why I am this way
Why do I always try to escape from love
Why do I not relsih the magic of life
Why do I still wish for more and more
Why why???

This is the way I am from the start
A little determined  and a lot more confused
A little naughty and a lot more charming
A little emotional and a lot more crazy
But my inquisition remains unanswered 
As still I often wonder why I am this way..
Why why???


Sunday, January 11, 2009

Sometimes & Othertimes

Sometimes I feel that I am in the top of this world
But othertimes I feel that I am the down trodden one

Sometimes I feel that I am amidst joy and happiness
But othertimes I feel that I am the one with sorrow and sadness

Sometimes I feel that I have the warmth of love in me
But othertimes I feel that I have been the one to be stone cold

Sometimes I feel that I have been bestowed with heavenly blessings
But othertimes I feel that I am the one who has never been blessed ever

Sometimes I feel that being myself has been the best thing in my life
But othertimes I feel that I am just one featherhead goofying around

Sometimes I feel that me and my luck go hand in hand
But othertimes I feel that I am the one who is star-crossed from the start

Sometimes I feel that I have the vigor, espirit and impulse of life
But othertimes I feel that my heart and soul are long gone  so now I am better off dead

Times change and so do feelings...
What remains is a blurr of happiness... 
A weather-beaten open wound of sadness...
And a huge bulk of eroded emotions...

 

Friday, January 2, 2009

I just wanna...


I just wanna sing a song today
Rap a tune of life, love and happiness 
Rock everyone with my medley and melody 
And then to it add a bit of my sweetness

I just wanna dance today
Stomp and caper, romp and hop
Dance to the tune of life and sway
And use life as my available prop

I just wanna fly today
Open my wings and soar high
Touch the glazed horizon and milky way
And enjoy my flight without a sigh

I just wanna laugh today
Crack jokes and make funny faces
Forget all my worries and laugh away
And add  liveliness to my dull senses

I just wanna be in love today
Live a moment of ecstacy and heavenly bliss
Be in my beloved's arms all day
And savour the passion in a exotic kiss

Me Vs Reality

Why did the sunshine not reach me
     When I was the one waking for it 
Why did the moon not shine on me
     When I was the one praising it
Are they just ignoring me...
    Or are they just enjoying it

Why did the breeze not cool me
     When I stood face to face with it
Why did the fire not warm me 
     When I wanted the warmth from it
Are they just playing games with me...
    Or are they just enjoying it

Why did the snow not moist me 
     When I like playing with it
Why did the spring not brighten me
     When I sang songs to glorify it
Are they just jeering at me... 
    Or are they just enjoying it

Why did words abandon me
     When I desired to stick to it
Why did tears dampen me
     When I never longed for it
Are they just teasing me...
   Or are they just enjoying it

Why did melody not rock me 
     When I wished to dance to it
Why did poetry not charm me 
     When I loved to flow with it
Are they just mocking me...
    Or are they just enjoying it

Why did love not gratify me
     When I had my heart on it
Why did life not content me 
     When I dreamt to subsist on it
Are they just sneering at me...
   Or are they just enjoying it

I Don't Know Why


I wished to fly like a bird
Spread my wings and touch the blue sky
But now the thought is just so weird
And believe me I don't know why

I desired to swim like the ducks
Floating angelic in the exotic spray
But now the idea just sucks
And belive me I don't know why

I longed to run as fast as a fawn
Feeling the breeze and to just run away
But now I am just another forlorn
And believe me I don't know why

I enjoyed walking in the rain
Getting wet and smiling all way
But now I am wet with tears and pain
And believe me I don't know why

I used to laugh like kids
Full of innocence and was once shy
But now I just cry for my deeds
And believe me I don't know why

I thought growing up was great
Doing what I want and having my own way
But now growing old is another fret
And believe me I don't know why

I believed to be loved
Is the most beautiful feeling full of ecsatcy
But now I am afraid of being loved
And believe me I don't know why

I wanted to savour life throughout
Spreading happiness, fun and joy
But now the idea seems to be old n out
And believe me I don't why