Have you anytime imagined how lucid and fluid our thoughts can be? They seem to flow in every possible direction as they don't bother about any hurdles like the free flowing rivers which don't care about the boundaries or territories in which they flow.
Sometimes I get surprised on my fluctuating thoughts. At one time I am thinking something and suddenly there comes a cascade and the flow of my thought takes a twist and changes its direction and then I am suddenly thinking something totally different which has absolutely no relation with my previous thoughts.
But at some other times some thoughts just tend to cling to the back of my mind and whatever I try to do in order to change their flow they just stick in there and try to dominate all my expertise in free thinking. And believe me all my self-control and self-resistance is a joke then.
Other times... when I really want to reason out things then all of a sudden I realize I am devoid of thoughts and that just my mind is blank. That's when I feel sorry for myself and at the same time I get very confused. And that's not a very good situation.
Some thoughts make me nervous racing my palpitation, some tensed making my brows curl, some tired asking me to just stop, some logical making me feel intelligent for the time, some naughty and mischievous, some are tempting enough to explore, some sinuous making me feel devils' own, some boil up my anger, some make me jump with joy, some are crystal clear like a placid lake, some torments like the violent surf and some just have their own way.
Sometimes I go such a long way with my thoughts that I forget what I was initially thinking and how all my thoughts reached the present note... then what I do must sound a little comical and I know you will have a hearty laugh on it but in that case I usually track down my thought stream and reach my initial point. Oh ho!!! you must be thinking why the hell I think and then why do I have to track it down. But I too don't know why the heck I do it even..but I do it every time my thought stream takes a new twist and turn. I know a few of you who read my blogs will conclude either I am out of my wits or that I have too much free time in my hands to handle. But believe me neither is the case and whatever I have written so far is just one of my thought stream.
