Time in and time out emotions unleash themselves in the worst possible manner. You just can't seem to control them then. It just keeps on flowing taking a toll on everything that comes your way; things you like and person you love. Sometimes the damage done is huge. And then you feel helpless and more mad at yourself for letting your emotions out of control.
This time I screwed up majorly. Things I said and the way I acted can't be undone. Thought of apologizing but then again thought I didn't even have a face to do so.
I knew always better than expressing myself; then why now? May be because the person I so trusted on and cared for hurt me yet again. But shouldn't I be seasoned to all this by now? If not by now then how much is it going to take to season me up? Because I don't think I can handle any more blame game or any more attack on my self respect.
None of this would have happened if like always I would have locked myself in the bathroom and cried my heart out. Then there would have been no questions asked nor there would have been the drama and no emotional vent out. But 'me being me' the foolish woman that I am had to sit on my bed and let my emotions drain out through my eyes and later verbally.
When will I learn? And moreover, when will I learn to shut up?
